I just popped this mini abstract into a fun, silver metal frame and love it! This’ll be a hint at another blog post to come about my mini abstracts that I mount for original artcards.
I haven’t been liking much of what I’m doing in my studio since the lockdown started nearly 2 weeks ago, but loved this mini so much that I just had to share today! And, the cool colors remind me of the now-closed Oregon coast beaches that I love so much.
I’m in a bit of an “artist intermission” full of anxiety, and the familiar depression that I’ve battled for many years. Nope, not a glamorous star here bringing awareness to those of us who live with depression and anxiety. And, I don’t have the resources to completely “take time off” to check in to a place of wellness to work on myself. Although I’m happy for those creatives who can work on their own wellness with time off and a dedicated (even inspirational) place to do it.
For me, I’m still here – in my home studio which has sat empty and alone for the past several weeks, just waiting for me to come back. I’ll admit that I’m acutely struggling right now.
Meanwhile, some of you have asked what I do with myself?
Well, I sleep a lot. I’ve worked on office chores such as household budgeting and financial actuals. I sit in my green leather studio chair and pet studio cat Stan. I managed to finally update my website with snapshots from my Arctic Circle Expedition. I take pills and go to talk therapy. I attempt to help myself with hard-to-crack wellness workbooks. And, I generally try to get back into things I’ve enjoyed in days gone by like gardening… one weed pulled at a time.
I miss painting my abstracts… I really do. Hopefully a new and inspirational project will come along for me soon. In the meantime, I’ll just try to tread water.
And a big thank-you to my husband, Steve, who through it all, helps and loves me lots.
Daunted by the experience itself and the 900 snapshots I took on the Expedition, I’ve clearly taken several months off from blogging more about my trip. Today I finally finished going through all of my snapshots, pulling out the better ones for publishing here on my blog and posting on my website.
The good news is that in the meantime, I completed the last larger commissions for my Kickstarter backers in late February, so everyone now has their arctic abstracts – over 80 that I painted – all inspired by my time in the ice and cold of the arctic circle.
Preparing for the Expedition, I had thought I’d be able to possibly paint on a table set up on the outside deck of the ship. But after two failed attempts to paint in the cold, snow and wind, I set up a makeshift studio on my bunkbed in my shared cabin. Tight quarters for sure, but I made it work and at least was out of the extreme elements!
This year has been a struggle for me as I live my artist’s life with ongoing depression and rising anxiety. Some might say I’m just another “tortured” artist, but it has taken me 20+ years to become accustomed to what “normal” feels like for me. And how I feel has changed alot this year for me.
So, as I work to get back to my own normal, one of my trusty therapies is my painting process. And besides trees, the sea and sky is one of my most favorite subjects. Painting the expansive sea and the ever-changing sky along with a nice, crisp horizon line holding them together almost always calms my nerves.
See what you think (and feel) with my latest sea and sky painting below. It’s titled No. 6 but is the only larger sea and sky painting to date that I’ve completely finished and mounted on panel. Click the painting or the link below to view it on my website.
I’ve been painting squares like never before recently… which for me is saying alot! I’m even doing a bit of collage application – here are some 1″ x 1″ squares that I’ve applied to a larger painting. Incidently, I met the Property Brothers – Drew, Jonathan and JD Scott – this past weekend at a private meet and greet here in Columbus. I’m a HUGE fan and presented them with some of my original artwork. The painting below was one of them!
I’ve been a fan of Michael W Smith’s music for a long time – surely over 25 years. His music and message always inspire me… all year around and at the holidays. His music is especially a favorite of mine for listening in my studio.
I recently commented here that I was listening to some of my favorite holiday music in my studio, including Michael W Smith, and received an interesting message from one of my blog fans. In a nutshell, the point was, how do I reconcile being a big fan of a musician who most likely would condemn and oppress me for being gay? I’ll admit that it is a question that I’ve avoided researching over the years, not really wanting to confirm anything. But, this message from a fan made me google around to see what I could find. I didn’t really stop to think how I would solve this problem, depending upon what I found out…
Well, there doesn’t seem to be much out there about what Michael W Smith thinks of gay folks. But, he does have a recent, dramatic video on his website that encourages conservatives to vote and highlights the fear of “redefining marraige” as a motivator. He also seems to be a fan of Rick Santorum, and we all know what he thinks of gay Americans.
So, how do I solve a problem like Michael W Smith? Is there a problem? Can I just not care what he thinks and still be inspired by his music? I’m certainly not a book-or-CD-burning kind of guy, but will I stop listening to his music? Blech – I don’t know.
Maybe I’ll try focusing on a simple message that is on his live Worship album. I wrote it down to send to members of my family years ago and dug it out to hang back up in my studio today:
Where do I begin? Well, perhaps I’ll start with where I ended up…. Columbus, Ohio. Nine months ago, the cats and I made the two-day drive from Denver to Columbus to join my partner, Steve, in our new home. Steve had received an opportunity to transfer within his company to the regional office in Columbus and, since we had been talking about “going on an adventure” for awhile, we jumped on it. And landed smack in the middle of Ohio.
While Steve’s new job got off to a great start, I quickly became deeply involved in helping care for my 85-year-old Uncle Jack. The court here in Ohio appointed me his legal guardian and I spent much of the Spring and Summer travelling up to Cleveland to help care for Uncle Jack’s health and finances. Sadly, my Uncle Jack passed away at the end of the Summer… may he rest in peace!
So, now I’m making art in my basement studio that I’ve set up. A lot of pent-up paintings are now flowing. They’ll be showing up here soon, so stay tuned for more posts from Columbus!
I love when kids of all ages really look at and comment on my art… it may sound corny, but it helps give me hope for our future! Sometimes, someone will go beyond that and really surprise me though. I recently had an exchange with a new fan that started with an email that said, “Hello. I really like your art and wanted to say ‘good job’.” I replied with my usual thank-you email and encouraged them to sign up for my email list or to Like me on Facebook where I post occassional art specials for folks. I love the repy I got back:
I can’t get any of your artwork because I’m only 10.
Well, if this young art fan is able to get her parent’s permission, I’ll be sending her one of my flapjacks to get her collection started – you’re never too young!!
I thought I’d share one of my favorite perennials that shows up as inspiration in my art… whether it is my Cupid’s Dart notecard image or the perfect lavender-blue color that I love so much. These are from a clump growing in our back garden. I transplanted them last year and was afraid they wouldn’t come back this year, but they did!
I’m working on mounting this painting to canvas panels… the whole painting will be a 24 x 64″ triptych. But I’m feeling alot of “dis” since returning from the Oregon coast: -content, -combobulated, -organized, -energized, -heartened, -engaged… it’s not that I’m not happy, just going through some growing pains right now.
OK folks… I’m back in Denver but haven’t forgotten that I promised to post my Tillamook Baked Mac-n-Cheese recipe. The most important ingredient is genuine Tillamook Cheddar cheese. I personally use their medium sharp or sometimes their extra sharp white reserve cheddar. I can usually get either one in our local Costco. Visit their website (www.tillamookcheese.com) for more recipes and to join their fan club!
One other note – this is a baked casserole type mac-n-cheese very similar to how my Mom made it. No bechamel sauce here!! So, if you like really soupy-saucy mac-n-cheese, this recipe lends a much more baked and firm texture. Here’s the recipe – enjoy!
1.5 cups small curd cottage cheese
6 oz. whipped cream cheese
seasoning to taste (I use 1 teaspoon each of black pepper and onion powder and 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder; a general seasoning mix is good too, although avoid too much additional salt!)
Mix the above ingredients in a large bowl with a whisk until well-combined. Then mix in the following cheeses:
3.5 cups grated Tillamook medium sharp cheddar cheese
1/2 – 1 cup grated gruyere cheese
Cook 14-16 oz. of pasta according to directions for “al dente” (I usually don’t use elbow, but something larger like penne). Drain pasta, toss and cool for a few minutes and then mix into the cheese mixture. Pour mac-n-cheese into a buttered 2.5 quart casserole dish, top with additional grated gruyere and bake at 325 degrees for about 45 minutes. Mac-n-cheese should be bubbling throughout and have a golden crust on top. Enjoy!
I notice that I’m not the only blogger that has taken some time off this summer from regular blogging. At the beginning of the summer I knew that I would have some out of the studio time in July and August to work on home renovation projects and travel a bit, including a solo camping trip to one of my favorite spots in Colorado, just outside of Leadville.
So, in my effort to get back into the swing of things, I thought I’d post a few snapshots from the last 2 months of a few of my outside-of-the-studio activities! I’ll share more about my favorite camping spot in another post.
Quite a surprising sighting in our own backyard when I got home from my studio yesterday: 3 wild turkeys! While we don’t live in downtown Denver, we do live a block from Cheesman Park and the Denver Botanic Gardens, which is a pretty densely populated neighborhood about 1.5 miles from downtown. I’ve never seen a wild turkey in Colorado, much less in Denver, but there they were. After flying from our carriage house into our neighbor’s backyard, I last saw them running up the sidewalk towards the Botanic Gardens.
I guess it pays to keep my eyes open, because I never would have believed this!
After yesterday’s “blizzard”, today seemed a perfect day for paperwork in my home office and some good old-fashioned, snow-day goofing off. The goofing off part included making some wonderful peanut butter cookies that are flourless and gluten free… I mix in chocolate chips for 1/2 of the dough.
Recipe below – enjoy!
GLUTEN FREE PEANUT BUTTER COOKIES
1 cup super chunky peanut butter
1 cup (packed) golden brown sugar
1 large egg
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 cup miniature semisweet chocolate chips (optional)
Preheat oven to 350°F. Mix first 5 ingredients in medium bowl. Mix in chocolate chips. Using moistened hands, form generous 1 tablespoon dough for each cookie into ball. Arrange on 2 ungreased baking sheets, spacing 2 inches apart.
Bake cookies until puffed, golden on bottom and still soft to touch in center, about 12 minutes. Cool on sheets 5 minutes. Transfer to racks; cool completely.
This past Sunday, Steve and I walked down to the Obama rally in Civic Center Park in downtown Denver. Wow! I have literally never in my life been in the middle of a crowd of more than 100,000 cheering people.
I was still “humming” from the energy of the people as I painted in my studio today. The hope and yearning for positive change for our country was so evident in the crowd and the people we talked with around us.
I especially liked that Obama wasn’t all “frosting and sprinkles”. I think the changes we have coming won’t be easy and I, for one, am ready to stand up and make more changes myself to help us get there. Here’s how Obama put it:
Now, make no mistake: the change we need won’t come easy or without cost. We will all need to tighten our belts, we will all need to sacrifice and we will all need to pull our weight because now more than ever, we are all in this together.
At a defining moment like this, we don’t have the luxury of relying on the same political games and the same political tactics that are used every election to divide us from one another and make us afraid of one another. With the challenges and crises we face right now, we cannot afford to divide this country by class or region; by who we are or what policies we support.
There are no real or fake parts of this country. We are not separated by the pro-America and anti-America parts of this nation we all love this country, no matter where we live or where we come from. There are patriots who supported this war in Iraq and patriots who opposed it; patriots who believe in Democratic policies and those who believe in Republican policies. The men and women from Colorado and all across America who serve on our battlefields may be Democrats and Republicans and Independents, but they have fought together and bled together and some died together under the same proud flag. They have not served a Red America or a Blue America they have served the United States of America.
We have always been at our best when we’ve had leadership that called us to look past our differences and come together as one nation, as one people; leadership that rallied this entire country to a common purpose to a higher purpose. And I am running for President of the United States of America because that is the country we need to be right now.
This country and the dream it represents are being tested in a way that we haven’t seen in nearly a century. And future generations will judge ours by how we respond to this test. Will they say that this was a time when America lost its way and its purpose? When we allowed the same divisions and fear tactics and our own petty differences to plunge this country into a dark and painful recession?
Or will they say that this was another one of those moments when America overcame? When we battled back from adversity by recognizing that common stake that we have in each other’s success?